Astral Viking (kriatyrr) wrote,
Astral Viking

I wish I had stayed at home.

Not doing good. Everything is different today. I see hostility in the faces of passing strangers where I saw none before. I gag at the scent of tobacco smoke where I'd merely be mildly annoyed before.

The world is closing in on me, trying to crush me. The voices of the people in the cafeteria assault me as I make another run to get more tea. Need that water-boiler.

I should have stayed at home. Nothing good can happen today.

But home isn't a sanctuary. Jan is there. My mom's place isn't a sanctuary, it's where Odessa disappeared.

I don't have anywhere I can go and feel safe, a place I can let down my defenses. It's too much of a strain to maintain this wall between me and the rest of the world.

Updated Odessa's site with pictures. It's all in Norwegian, but I don't think anyone will have trouble navigating it. Will start working on a .css now. Or an icon. Whatever. Doesn't look like I'll have anything work-related to do today, thankfully.

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