Sometimes one just has to go back to the basics.
So instead of shuffling off to work, terrified for a plethora of reasons, including traffic accidents or deliberate attacks, getting to work and doing nothing while there, and dealing with the same issues on the way back.. I'm just not going to.
To be of two minds - to be convinced that the world holds hostility toward me, and to know very well that the majority of people I meet have no clue who I am, and don't give a flying rat's ass..
I feel anemic. Struggling to even stay awake. I think something is trying to put me into a state of perpetual dreaming, because the things I can accomplish in a conscious state are.. what?
Okay, enough wallowing in self-pity. I know it's not chemical. It's environmental. Something affecting my life is making me unhappy.
I'm stagnating. Don't know where to go from here.
The waste of skin has been here a lot lately, stealing my food and stinking up the house.
Have almost no money. Payday was today, and after having set aside money for upcoming expenses, have very little left for food.
So I'm surviving, but not much else.