September 4th, 2005

I am evil

There'll be days like this..


Today has been bad. Sat here for hours this morning before I managed to gather the will to go take a shower and get started with the day. Even the smallest thing, or just thinking about just about anything, sets me off crying instantly.

Now my back hurts because I've been sitting at the computer for most of the day, too. Didn't even leave the property today.

Will have to take a long walk tomorrow. Båntjern maybe. I don't like being far from home when I'm bleeding like a dying man, so maybe I'll just stay here.

Drugs or no drugs, I won't be able to sleep much tonight. And my doctor's prescription does say "not for daily use" (because it has a relatively high risk of addiction), so I guess I'll go without tonight.