June 15th, 2006

Gan-chan, Iwata Mitsuo

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Walked a lot, too much sun. Have come to the conclusion that I don't save money at all by walking instead of using public transportation, at least in this heat.. I keep needing to get something to drink, which costs me more than the bus fare.

Psych appointment went well. Other place seemed great - will start after summer vacation. Got some reading done while waiting for the appointed time. On the way back home I met a gorgeous cat who let me pet him a little. It's been a good day.

Naturally, I slept until after dark upon return to my bed. Woke up after 10, and while following Odessa out downstairs, I noticed something interesting on TV, and caught a fair portion of Akira Kurosawa's Akahige. Great movie.. I wish I could have seen it from the beginning.

Going back to bed now, and in the morning I start on my anti-depressants. Due to sleeping in and stuff, I didn't get the "last night of drinking" I had planned. Going to stay off alcohol for at least two weeks, need to know how the meds affect me before I can add another factor to the equation.

ARCON is in a week, though.
Gan-chan, Iwata Mitsuo

First day on psych drugs.


Impatient for change. I was told not to expect any difference for a week or two.

Harriet-san just left, saying she'd be back on Sunday or later. House to myself for an extended weekend, yay.

The only non-frozen meat I got in Sweden has a use by date of tomorrow, so I'm going to attempt to make an awesome stew or casserole or whatever you'd call it. I just braved the sun again to go to Vinderen, to the greengrocer there, and got a lot of different vegetables, some apples, fresh basil and oregano, and tofu. (The tofu won't be used in this meal, since I have REAL MEAT for once.)

This is going to be way too much food for me alone. Maybe I can freeze some for later, or call around to family members and see if anyone can come over.

First day on psych meds, continued.


Am noticing that I feel more anxious than usual. I don't think it's the drug, but rather the nightmare I had tonight. Does this make it the third or fourth time I've dreamed that the vile one is trying to kill me? I'm afraid I'll never be free of this fear.
Someone came around the house at about 19:20, knocked on the door. Could only see jeans-clad legs from up here. Was scared, didn't go down to see who it was, just pretended to not be home until they went away.

I cooked an awesome dinner today. It was supposed to be stew, but it was thin enough to be called soup, so I guess it was beef soup with vegetables. Could have used more meat, but I actually ran out of space in the pot. When I get my own kitchen, I'm going to get one of those large iron pots, and use it maybe twice a year.

When I weighed myself this morning, I was dismayed to see that I had gone a full kilogram over what has been my max weight for months. I did not eat that much sugarstuff after the shopping trip of DOOM!, I really didn't. It's not fair. And all those really long walks I've taken recently? Why aren't they helping.
I'm due to have my period within the next few days, hopefully it's just my body retaining fluid in preparation for the great purge.

Noticed I'm not using my 500W Halogen lightcaster of DOOM! anymore - during summer, it doesn't really get dark and gloomy. Using my fan every day now, though. The weather has been just awesome lately.. but part of me wishes it would rain so the slugs would come out. I don't think I'll get to see Limax maximus mating this year either. I wonder if they breed in captivity. I bet that setting up a functional environment for them would take up more space than I'd be willing to sacrifice, and cost more money than I could save in half a year.

I've barely used my laser printer at all. I want to print something, but there's really nothing I need to print now.