July 3rd, 2006

Real men drink TEA

Blargh

 

Stressed. So many things that need to be done before I go on vacation in a week or so.

I've been having strange dreams nearly every night lately. Tonight's line-up included reading my flist, where I saw a user trolling in vhemt, going on and on about how utterly wonderful his newborn son was, what a wonderful feeling it was to be a parent, etc.

That in turn reminded me of something I had read about "living someone else's dream". I'm sure there are plenty of people out there that envy me my life. My life isn't bad by far, but it's not the one I want.
Part of the problem is that I still don't know exactly what I want.
I think I'd like to not have so deep roots. It's great to have a place to return to, like Brosvika.. but what I'd like is to have trusted friends living near me, so that I could go traveling at the drop of a hat, and have someone feed the cat and water my plants in my absence. Having dependents really limits my freedom.